I've been dreading sharing this information over my blog....I don't even know really where to begin or how much info. to share, but I do know some of you wanted to hear about whats been going on.... This has been a 4.5 year process and it is hard to share without getting emotional or knowing exactly how to put it in words....but I'll try.
Mike and I were married almost 5 years ago. We knew from the start that we wanted children and about 6-8 months into our marriage I went off the pill. I thought it would be "easy" for us to get pregnant. My mom has 10 brothers and sisters and all of my cousins who were around our age, would seriously get pregnant just saying the word baby, or looking at someone who was pregnant, or drinking water. :) Us....well, let's just say it is almost 4.5 years later from our conversations when we were first married. After awhile, I chose not to think about it. I didn't know why it was taking so long or what we were doing "wrong", but me not thinking about it just seemed to help. About a year ago, I started seeing a fertility specialist. I started tracking my cycles and figuring out when the "best time" for us to try was. A year later...I'm still tracking. It doesn't help that most of our friends, family, and co workers have all had babies and they haven't been trying as long as we have. I also know for some of our friends they started the adoption process and have beautiful babies now..... I am genuinely excited for our friends who are pregnant, but it still hurts, you know? I have ALWAYS dreamed of being a mom, and I know I will be, I just want it sooner rather than later.
Okay...back to the doctor. I had blood work done, laproscopic surgery to remove endometriosis right before school started. They found some, not alot though, around my ovaries and uterus. They removed that and did a D&C and a hysterography (or something like that). Most women who have the D&C, I thought get pregnant that next month. Well...its been 3 months since then and we still aren't. I don't want this to sound like a pity party....I just want to figure out whats wrong. This past week I had to have a colonoscopy because they did find some endometriosis around my colon. There was a lot more then they thought and they didn't know if it was just around my colon or actually inside, hence the colonoscopy to see. Let's just say I NEVER want to go through with that again. The actual procedure was fine....but the night before was the WORSE thing I've ever done. WORSE than my 9 surgeries, WORSE than any hangover.....I had to drink this chalky mixture, 64 ozs total....8 ozs every 10 minutes. I wanted to vomit. Gross!!! Anyway, he said everything looked okay, which is the good news. He sent some stuff away for biopsies just in case. I feel like I am back at square one. My original doctor who did the laproscopic thought I would have to have surgery to remove the endometriosis around my colon, which is a 6 week recovery time. So my next step, I think, is to see another Ob/Gyn to get his/her opininon. I think I am going to try and schedule one today and get a second opinion and see what they think our next step should be.
So...that's where we are now. This was probably WAY too much information for some of you and I apologize for that :) Thank you for listening to me ramble on and get these thoughts out of my head! ;)